Uncertain feelings July 11, 2009
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Uncertain feelings. So many promises made and broken. It seems 6years and 6 months didn’t help to build our relationship. Still your level of understanding and knowing me is still shallow. I am getting rather tired of repeating telling how I felt. Every year I have to repeat all over again, every time the same topic and sentences, perhaps this is showing that there isn’t any improvement and yet it’s a waste of time.
Perhaps all these years I have been lying to myself. Telling myself to give you a chance, lets talks things out since its been so long we have been together. But the truth is things aren’t working out at all. Perhaps its time for me to face the fact.
Maybe I am too afraid to face the fact that once again my relationship comes to an end. Perhaps I am afraid to be alone again. The thought of breaking up, made me thought of the past. Another failure?
If this persistently continues till after the vow, there will be no return.
Am I demanding too much for you to understand me? I have not demand you to give me any luxurious things or romantic things.
It’s time to face the fact.
Wedding dress dreams June 14, 2009
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I just had a good rest after my night shift, had a migraine in the morning so my plans for today was all messed up. Didn’t manage to go to PC Show at Suntec CC but spent sometime browsing through the web for wedding dress. i found a few that I adore.
There is this one I fell in love with it on my first lay
This dress is so unique. I really hope to be able to find this dress for my wedding, else will have to have it tailor out. I heard tailoring at Guangzhou is cheap.
This one is the other one that I adore, look at the patterns on the top its simple and unique. Outstanding. Then look at thee flow of the dress…it makes the bride look so princess like and gorgeous.
This one is simple one but I like the bottom of the dress it looks unique… simple and nice.
Lastly but not least….I love this dress a lot…the pattern is so attractive, just nice not too many pattern. Wish I could find this dress too…Dress hunting starts!
Sudden depression June 9, 2009
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I start to think whether am I making the right decision. Is this how I want my life to be? Is he the right person to share my life with?
From the view of outsider, we seems to be like a happy couple and the best couple. Are we really happy deep down, only both of us know.
Sudden low mood has drove me into my deep thoughts. Should I ask for something more that I should have? Rather than just thinking all for him.
It’s true my closest friend once said I am always doing and thinking just for him, but does it worth? I answered her it worth as he loves for me alot. Her reply if it worth he wouldn’t want you to be doing it all by yourself.
It strike me in deep thought that why am I doing all these for him, LOVE…..why am I always putting him in the priority rather than myself? Why do I sacrifice everything for him? LOVE….
Sometimes I felt rather tiring, repeating all over again, explaining to him over and over again. Still he doesn’t get it. He feels its something silly to think over it. It doesn’t need to spend so much time to think over it as tomorrow a brand new day and everything will be just fine as it is. Do not need to waste energy or time on it to make things better.
I was thinking….6 years and 6 months and 2 days… it is such a long time…
I am feeling in doubts…….and its not a good thing….
I have another 6 months to clear things before I make the wrong decision.
It is so difficult to explain how I felt I feel heavy, deppressed…..I think I am breaking down….but he doesn’t understand my feelings……He can’t sacrifice for me as he is always thinking for himself first….
Moments of remembrance May 31, 2009
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Last week was back at home town and had spent lots of time with my fiance and even discussed about our wedding plans. So it is fixed that we will apply on September for our registration to be on next year January 7th the day we got together. Was very excited about it, then our traditional ceremony will only be held the following year due to superstitious matter. Have to follow what the elderly adviced as if misfortune happens then I am to be blame, so to prevent such things happen delay another 4 months from the actual plan we had.
During my holiday, Kim Fei brought me to those restaurant that I wanted to try before I came to Singapore. He said I have got thinner than he previously saw me a month ago, so he wants to mke me gain more weight.
We went to Little Taiwan at ss15 opposite Taylor’s college for lunch…
It was nice but a little disappointment thinking it will be like that Little Taiwan restaurant that I remembered I used to go with my high school buddy at ss2, that one is even better. Misses those time lots, especially the food of course! haha..
Then we actually went to Frontera Bar and Grill at Jaya One as one of my friend told me to go there and try the food, so Kim Fei brought me there at the same time had drinks with his friends.
To remember where we park our car in case we forgot…haha
Was so hungry and last minute capture the photo
My darling’s dish – Beef rib, it was so juicy and soft AND HUGE! He couldn’t finish it up at first but its so tasty at last yumm everything into the stomach…
My dish – fried steak. Have never tried fried steak before besides those grilled ones. It was delicious as the texture of the beef wasn’t rough and hard, instead juicy and tender worth a try, I love the mashed potato somehow its different from Chilis and TGIF.
We had a great dinner that night, filling dinner and satisfied!
After eating and sleeping for the past 1 week finally 2kg which my darling was quite satisffied with the result of filling me up…haha…
Home Sweet Home May 19, 2009
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Finally a week to spend at home with my family. At the same time my sister came back from U.K., so we spend so much time together.
Yesterday we went to ss2 night market it has been so long since I been to the night market. We went to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng for dinner.
I had Guava Lime Juice, the Chocolate milk shake was my sister’s.
This photo is taken by my dearest fiance….my perfect photographer.
Then we went for a walk at the night market. Sister was craving for bubble tea, haha its been such a long time since she had it. At the same time my cousin brother is coming back today with his junior, can’t wait to meet the little junior JenSen.
That’s yesterday….
Today, mom bought me Lam Mee from Pudu wet market the famous Lam Mee. Mom will be cooking dinner tonight, yum yum can’t wait for it.
Lonely night May 3, 2009
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Standing at the balcony looking upon the sky,
Feeling the breeze of cool air on my skin,
Wishing you were here to warm me up,
Hiding in your warm body feeling secure,
Looking upon the clear blue sky,
My thoughts are so cold and blank,
Knowing that I miss you dearly,
Trying to reminisce those precious moments,
Listenning to the quiet night,
Feeling my heart beating,
undescribeable aching feeling from deep inside,
Longing for you to be right next to me.
Visit from my dearest fiance May 3, 2009
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Due to the swine flu I have decided not to go back hometown even though I have bought the tickets so my dearest came down to visit me instead.
We went to visit around and shop around too.
On Friday, early in the morning we went to mamak to have our breakfast. I had mee bakso and Kim Fei had mushroom and egg prata double with teh tarik. Then I spotted this real cute black cat.
Then we went to Haw Par Village since my brother recommend us to have a visit there. It was tiring and sweaty due to the sunny weather. But then we had fun learning the 10 courts of hell which we need to pay SGD1 for entry. We captured all the courts photo. Some was really scary when we read it…..
After Haw Par Villa, we went to Bugis street to walk around but it was so crowded so we didn’t manage to buy anything but it was on sale as every clothes was 10dollar per piece. Should have brought See Mun here, she will sure buy lots! Then we went to have tea time at this Japanese Cafe, we had pizza and a sushi.
Then we make our move to Orchard Road for shopping, then I was searching for John Little and we walked and walked and walked and found out we have went to the wrong direction the opposite direction and so far away. Luckily we saw a bus stand and quickly get on the bus to go to Somerset Road and ‘ta da’ we found it!At Isetan, there was this Timberland sale, so Kim Fei spotted this white leather shoe for 99dollar which I felt it was a catch, so we quickly got it. Then we walked around and went up to food court to get dinner for my brother as usual Subway, then we went to this restaurant just beside Isetan and had the beef stew in red wine with some handmade breads and also the seafood pasta. It was great. After an exhausted day we took a cab home.
The very next day, woke up slightly later due to yesterday long walk. Then we had fish ball noodle at the shop next block. Then here we go again…we wanted to go to Vivo at first but then my shoe hurts and so we went to Queensway to buy my shoe. Then i bought one for my brother too but at the end of day brother said he doesn’t like the design so i gave it to Kim Fei as Kim Fei actually like that design but in red band but that red band was out of stock so this one was the black band since brother doesn’t want it so Kim Fei will have it as its a waste to be there and not worn.
After buying my croc shoe, we went to China Town to walk around. We had dessert
The grass jelly with ice, durian in sticky rice, black sesame paste. Yum yum…
After dessert we decided to go to Jurong Point to shop for some groceries and household usage while waiting for 5.30pm to come. Why? For the Japanese buffet!! We had it with greedy stomach. Haha…we were so bloated up and we were so hungry that we didn’t capture any photo.
We had such a great time. Fun time!!
Just beside but still missing May 3, 2009
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Having you beside me was all I am thinking of in the past few weeks. Your warmnest is keeping me warm from the cold room. Everyone is sound asleep except me adoring you in your deep sleep. The snore that I have not been hearing for few weeks. I am starting to feel the aching feeling of love sick. You are right next to me but yet I am missing you already. Once again tomorrow we will be far away from each other. Wondering when will be the next return trip. Whispering into your ears telling you how much I will be missing you and I will look at you sleeping till you wake up, I do not want to miss the time being with you as time flew by like wind while we are in our dreamland.
Darling’s birthday and surprises to both parents! April 22, 2009
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On the 12th April 2009 was my darling’s birthday, had a trip back to celebrate with him and also to discuss about our marriage with two parties’ parents.
We went to tried out the dim sum at Imperial Garden restaurant at Menara Intan, next to Armada Hotel, Petaling Jaya with mom and Jarod. Below were some dishes we tried they were having offer of 50% discount.
We had a very good breakfast, the food was good. Besides having a good breakfast we had other objective is too look for our wedding dinner venue as on the internet it looks good.
The decoration was great, but the hall was narrow as what was mentioned in the Malaysian Bride’s forum. So mom adviced it’s too narrow for elderly guest to sit and other guests to moves around. So we went to another locations to look around and came by Ming Cuisine restaurant at Sec19, Petaling Jaya
As for the food, tried there before was not too bad so mom will be waiting for my sister to come back from U.K. to try the food before we decide the venue as for my FH he was quite pleased with this restaurant as it also have halal food provide by the next door halal club kitchen.
We had his birthday celebration at Yuen Yuen Steamboat Restaurant at Mentari, Bandar Sunway.
Taking photo with my darling’s parents
my parent’s turn….cheese~~~
Darling and his whole gang of friends….
We had so much from the steamboat. As usual we did chase after the delicious chicken of theirs. Luckily I have my darling the champion of grabbing it in the crowd. All of us enjoyed the dinner.
Then after dinner we went to Republic for some drinks while waiting for midnight to strike for my darling’s birthday. Able to grabbed some photos before everyone gets drunk…=p
We had so much fun..especially the birthday boy..
A small birthday surpirse for darling at the clock strike 12…like cinderella story…
Then came a few friends that I have not met before. They were like celebrating for us getting engaged giving us a couple drink. It was crazy that moment but able to gulp it down!
Then other days were passing by so fast and it’s time for me to go back to Singapore. Was so sad to leave…
Simple Happiness~~ March 19, 2009
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Was in my deep thoughts at this very moment browsing through photos in Facebook posted by some friends. Realizing that I am thanking god for letting me found you my precious that fulfilled my once emptied life. Thinking deeply that I have found someone meant for me and really loves me for who I am and not for what I am. Somehow he doesn’t care whetherI am fat or thin….doesn’t mind if I am pretty or ugly……doesn’t mind if I have bad tempers…doesn’t mind me nagging at him….doesn’t mind me bugging him….doesn’t mind waiting for me continuous for 3 whole hours….doesn’t mind sacrificing for me….doesn’t mind driving me back to KL from SG….I am blessed to have him with me. A true man of my life. Those past were nothing like him. I must treasure him so I shall tell him how I felt now.
