Sheryl's Memories

Yesterday was by sleeping day after my night duty, so came back around 11am and quickly do my house work. Then went to Jurong Point to buy the sandal that my mom asked me to buy on her previous trip down but unfortunately out of stock so mom is going to kill me when I go home next week. Then I went to have a quick lunch, I had okonomiyaki, my favourite.

I was sitting on the table number 19.

Delicious okonomiyaki, I didn’t manage to finish it up as I don’t have much appetitte to eat. Then I went to West Mall to get a cardigan that I spotted but then when I tried it on, it doesn’t seems to look nice on me, so I gave up and bought some dinner and went back home to rest.

Today I went to Bugis street to check out those clothings on sale for 10dollar each that I saw during my dear dear came down to visit me last few weeks. I bought a few clothes especially a cardigan that I wanted. Bought a maxi dress too, hope its nice on me.

I had Yoshinoya for lunch, it was such a long time since I had it.

It was a delicious lunch. I bought for my brother for lunch and dinner. Lazy to go out again once I am at home.

So that’s my day today, tomorrow back to work. Listening to radio Class95, Gloria Estefan feat N’sync on air, my favourite song.

“Perhaps being trained to be immuned to it”, is all I can say. Sometimes it may seems like we aren’t fighting for what we should, maybe perhaps it isn’t the right place to  raise out, isn’t the right person to discuss with, isn’t in the right position to suggest, doesn’t have the enough qualification to argue. It is true one influence will affect the others. Then the sharing is  meant to be as we are friends. I believe that’s whats friends are for.

I believe throughout my 3 years training, I am immuned to it and so forth get fed up fighting for my rights. I do understand this attitude cannot be maintain as it is similar to a robot. It is rather difficult to explained it as it is such a long story. Trying my best to perform well.

Do not felt that your influence is bad as it somehow will create new miracle changes.

As for me, I am those kind that live life balance…work is work, personal life is personal life. Once out of working place it is my personal life and I will not want to spend time thinking about it!

Silly you can say but at least  I felt stressless.

So shall we plan for more outings together? Miss it so much!!!

I wonder how unique one’s brain is with all the nerve sending impulses to each other. One’s brain is so complex with all different functions at different part. Memories that kept in our brain. How many space is there in our brain? How much can a brain store?

Sometimes I am proud of God’s creation to such a beautiful thing. At times I felt why do I have such good memories about everything that ever happen throughout my life. Sometimes it hurts knowing that I am the only one remembering so many things that has happened before. At times these memories hurts me deeply. Wanting to erase those memories but it’s a brain and not a computer cpu whereby with just a click of delete and there goes *poff*.

I thought I could face it but I guess I am still not prepared to face it. I guess I have still unable to let go of it. I have made the wrong step thinking I am strong enough to face it but the truth is I AM NOT!

Every little tiny things reminds me of it. At times I wonder why is the brain so heartless. When it’s lost it treasures it in the memories when it’s around it will never treasure or even think about it. It is such a complex process.

How I wish there is a delete function….

Brain injury….*laughing*….I think I am going crazy.

I was always searching for the brightest stars even though I am always being with you at that moment……There you are….

After two days of training leave, it is time to go back to work. Tomorrow I will be on morning shift. I have learnt a lot from these two days of training leave.

My friend told me that the trainer has brought her mind to think of the question she mentioned to all of us ‘Is this what you want to be?’ Come to think about it, I felt that I don’t belong to where I am now.  It is true that I don’t have much interest in surgical area but in order for me to have a good future I will need to venture all the areas to gain those respective experiences that I do not have. I really do enjoy Obstetric & Gynaecology plus Midwifery. I really missed my previous workplace.

I will just need to work harder!! Ganbantte ne!

I had a heavy dinner with my brother. It is kind of lonely here in this particular foreign country though I have my brother with me but it is rather different.  My best buddy stayed quite far away and due to budgetting and tiredness I seldom meet up with her. Life is just work, housework and sleep. Due to budgetting I do not shop around, spending my off time to rest.

It is so different back then…….

I’ve been tagged by my cousin brother, Jarod.

The rules are as follow:-

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 5 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their names & links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

The list as below…da da dum….drum roll please…

1. Doing opposite things from other people. Example : Last time when I went to Hong Kong, it was cold weather there wind blowing like Genting Highland and I was only wearing a spaghetti strap top and a mini skirt (thin fabric). It wasn’t cold at all, it was cooling breeze. Nice but then everyone is staring at me like an alien from venus. Then there was this once when I was at Genting Highland for holiday with my family, we went to have a drink at Coffee Bean, I ordered ice blended, and guess what my seats were just outside near the slope. It was night cool breeze. Excitingly enjoying my blended drink at the same time, everyone is staring at this silly girl drinking such cold freezing drink at night at Genting Highland. Wow…*brrrr* cool!

2. I do talk to myself sometimes like when I was playing game or when I was doing some shopping. I will talk to myself how should I do this, whether is this nice or not, whether the clothes suits me or not. I will mumble to myself most of the time. While waiting for someone I will mumble what I should do later or eat later.

3. I have 2 soft toys and 5 small miniature soft toys. The big ones 1 is a pig another 1 is a bear. The pig is my 2nd son name Chu Chai, the 3rd one is my third son name Siu Hong. Then the 5 small tiny ones is tortoise. 1 is green in colour the biggest among the 4 which is the father of 3 kids and the eldest son of mine name Tor, then 1 pink slightly smaller which is the wife of Tor name Mo, then there is the blue one 1st son of Tor&Mo name Bo, then comes a green one but smaller 2nd son of Tor&Mo name Ro, then comes a pink one smaller 3rd daughter of Tor&Mo name Lo. We have a one whole big happy family with my boyfriend.

4. A weird Chinese whom dislike to watch Chinese silly movie and whom doesn’t listen to Chinese song. Instead she loves listenning to English sentimental songs and other languages songs. So do I still recognize as a Chinese girl though I am in chinese race?

5. I love driving around alone when I am not in the perfect mood. Love to go far far away.

Here are the people I am going to tag

Kenneth , http://kenphang.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/

Noly , http://myvigirl.blogs.friendster.com/angel_from_hell/

Juli , http://juppie.wordpress.com/

Jillie, http://jillielam.blogs.friendster.com/jillies_blog/

Ee Mun , http://reverina.blogs.friendster.com/r3v3r1n4/