Sheryl's Memories

I start to think whether am I making the right decision. Is this how I want my life to be? Is he the right person to share my life with?

From the view of outsider, we seems to be like a happy couple and the best couple. Are we really happy deep down, only both of us know.

Sudden low mood has drove me into my deep thoughts. Should I ask for something more that I should have? Rather than just thinking all for him.

It’s true my closest friend once said I am always doing and thinking just for him, but does it worth? I answered her it worth as he loves for me alot. Her reply if it worth he wouldn’t want you to be doing it all by yourself.

It strike me in deep thought that why am I doing all these for him, LOVE…..why am I always putting him in the priority rather than myself? Why do I sacrifice everything for him? LOVE….

Sometimes I felt rather tiring, repeating all over again, explaining to him over and over again. Still he doesn’t get it. He feels its something silly to think over it. It doesn’t need to spend so much time to think over it as tomorrow a brand new day and everything will be just fine as it is. Do not need to waste energy or time on it to make things better.

I was thinking….6 years and 6 months and 2 days… it is such a long time…

I am feeling in doubts…….and its not a good thing….

I have another 6 months to clear things before I make the wrong decision.

It is so difficult to explain how I felt I feel heavy, deppressed…..I think I am breaking down….but he doesn’t understand my feelings……He can’t sacrifice for me as he is always thinking for himself first….