Words that discourages….. February 18, 2009
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My heart to strive seems to be demotivated by some words that discourages. I have never felt this way before. Do I belong to where am I now? Am I interested in this area? Can they try to understand other people’s feeling? Do they always look differently towards those below their expectation? I can feel that my thoughts no longer stay strong as I used to be. I am so lost seeking for my ownself. Perhaps I needed extra time to adjus
Do I really need to care about others? Am I all by myself? My heart is telling me that I am not alone, I have my patients with me. My objectives are to maintain safety and health of my patient. I want them to get well and be happy while in the hospital.
Some will not understand and assuming that I should know all. Truthfully I am out of touch with so many things and i felt ashamed but I hid it within me without showing it out. I bug them with silly questions. Some will think I am stupid.
But then come to think of it, this is a challenge to build me up and I shall accept it. Do not bother what other thinks and say!!!
I shall find back my optimistic soul of mine!!
Gear up~~~ February 17, 2009
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After two days of training leave, it is time to go back to work. Tomorrow I will be on morning shift. I have learnt a lot from these two days of training leave.
My friend told me that the trainer has brought her mind to think of the question she mentioned to all of us ‘Is this what you want to be?’ Come to think about it, I felt that I don’t belong to where I am now. It is true that I don’t have much interest in surgical area but in order for me to have a good future I will need to venture all the areas to gain those respective experiences that I do not have. I really do enjoy Obstetric & Gynaecology plus Midwifery. I really missed my previous workplace.
I will just need to work harder!! Ganbantte ne!
I had a heavy dinner with my brother. It is kind of lonely here in this particular foreign country though I have my brother with me but it is rather different. My best buddy stayed quite far away and due to budgetting and tiredness I seldom meet up with her. Life is just work, housework and sleep. Due to budgetting I do not shop around, spending my off time to rest.
It is so different back then…….
Missing my precious! February 16, 2009
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Today is the worst day for me. I lost my engagement ring. I tried finding it everywhere in the train station but no where to be found Spent almost 3 hours searching for it. I was about to burst into tears. I pray to lord please let me found it but no where to be found. I called Kim Fei he comforted me saying that he will buy a nice and better one again. But I told him that this one is so precious to me, it meant so much to me. It’s like him being next to me accompanying me by my side while I am lonely in a foreign country. Wearing it made me feels closer to him and not feeling so lovesick. He understood my feeling but it is no where to be found and he insisted me to come home and rest.
I have no appetite to eat at all…I felt so depressed. Luckily he is such an understanding guy, he cheered me up.
Still I am missing my precious, will try to search again tomorrow and ask the station people whether anyone found my precious or not.
